Robin Williams

As I lie here in bed just before im going to drift of to sleep I check my twitter news feed. The tragic news of Robin Williams was broke last night and for the past 24 hours I can't bring myself to read any of the tributes that had been put out for him other than my own. Well now I face it. I cry...im crying now.
 Why? I did not know this man personally and I have never cried at the death of another celebrity before. Well there are a few reasons I believe.
For many of us Robin Williams was a boloved childhood fixture. We grew up with him make us laugh and bringing us joy. He taught me what it was to be funny and to this day its the thing I strive for the most. To make people laugh like he could, to have people embrace you whole heartedly the way he could. To have people hang of his every word, and making every individual feel special even though he was reaching an audience of millions. Robin Williams was not someone I just looked up to but he was someone whos brought an remarkable light to this world and someone who I strived to be. He is the reason I wanted to be funny over everything else. I felt like I knew that incredible man even though he'd inly ever been on my screen. It takes a special kind of person to connect to people the way he could.

The other reason ive recognised as to why im so desperatly sad as to the death of Robin Williams is how he passed.

Its the strangest thing to me that someone with such a bright light can have places with in them that are so dark. But yet personally knowing and understanding the struggles that Robin must have been going through to commit such an act it didnt come as much of a shock as it should. Sometimes we find those laughing the loudest are those that have the most to hide. Depression is not something we should be taking lightly and suffering with it myself it deeply saddens me that it took the death of such a beloved icon for depression to become a publicly discussed topic rather than some fletting story in the newspapers. Depression knows no bounds and it can touch anyone.

Robins death was not something I expected to take so hard, and I can't begin to imagine what his family and loved ones must be going through if I just a simple fan feel this much greife. My love and prayers go out to them.

I wanted to say so much more but the ability to put into words how this man has touched my life and the life of so many others,and the gaping whole he leaves behind eludes me. I think ill leave with this quote I read today that seems fitting "Just because you're struggling, doesn't mean you're failing"

R.I.P Robin Williams -gone but most certainly not forgotten