Ireland days

Hello my lovely's

I've been really struggling with things to blog about of recent.

Feeling like i haven't really got a lot of interesting stuff to say.

But then alas !

i remembered...

I've only gone and brought myself some tickets to Ireland.

WAAHHOOO 

I simply cannot wait to go, i leave at the beginning of august to stay for a week

( i would stay longer but i'm going to be staying with a friend and anymore more time then that might drive her crazy )

I've always wanted to go to Ireland

It looks like such  beautiful country.

...And i love the accent

It was my mission this year to make a trip to Ireland, but i honestly didn't think it would happen.

Little things getting in the way and such, but i bit the bullet and just booked some tickets. 

I'm going to be making this little adventure on my own.

Big step for me if i'm honest.

I've always prided my self of being a very independent person but actually when i really think about it, i'm far less independent then i think.

So this trip, even though i'm staying with a friend, is going to be one hell of a big step for me.

Especially since i'm going to uni in September it think its really important for to start doing things completely on my own and use it as a personal growth experience.

It's healthy really

Maybe my next step will be to take a trip completely on my own.

Not go and stay with a friend, but get to a country by myself and enjoy learning who i am.

HMMM sounds like a plan

It's good to challenge yourself, find out what your really made of

When was the last time you challenged yourself?

It doesn't have to be anything as big as a trip by yourself,

but something that pushes your comfort zone just that little bit.

They do say 'do one thing every day that scares you'

X

Embarrassing moment -2

Well my muffins, you've got two blogs in one day. The only reason is because, its that time again. Embarrassing moment time. Urgh...

Now this literally just happened to me. 

Right ill try to create a mental picture

for you.

So im in Primark, minding my own business. Mentally spending the money thats burning a whole in my pocket, when a girl starts shouting in my direction ' excuse me, excuse me' her head bobbing over the clothing towers as she makes her way towards me.

Oh god, she thinks i work here. What do i do? So my first reaction is defensive mode

'Excuse me...can you tell me ...' 

And before have the time to take in fully what shes saying to me i respond (in a rather snappy manner)

"I dont work here "

It takes a second, but i then register    what she actually said to me

" can you tell me... The time "

 I look like a moron, All the poor girl wants to know is the time and ive given her my occupational status. Cue  confused look across her face and my mother thankfully giving her the time whilst i do the walk of shame. 

Oh dear. 

Mobile blogger

I have my blog back on my phone !! 

So handy, any thoughts i have can come straight to you as i think them :p

Although, lets be honest. 

Im pretty flaky. 

All i can say is ill try and be more consistent. 

Plus there is a lack of editing on here. 

So all my simple blogs will have come from my phone. 

Speaking of phones, i got a pretty new phone case the other day. It makes me soo happy :) 

Much love 

X

21

Hello there my lovely

Well its been 2 weeks since in turned the grand age of 

21

Let me tell you I had the best birthday.

A blog post on what i did is to follow and for all you Disney lovers out there it will be worth the read.

But for today's post I wanted to write something a little different

So with out further adieu

Here are 21 lessons i have learnt and some advise for my past self.

1:

You are going to change, it maybe be a little or a lot.
You may change one a year or once a day.
Change is progress

And  its okay

2:

Do it now !
 That little thing your putting off... the sooner you do it,

the happier you'll be

3:

Learn to enjoy spending time with yourself.
Your the only person you'r going to spend forever with,
so you might as well enjoy your company.

4:

Dont give your heart away too freely...

5:

However
no matter how cautious you are with your heart you will probably get burned. 

It happens to most of us,
your not alone

6:

You will loose friends.
Its the sad truth, you wont remain friends with everyone.
Even the ones that you thought you were super close to may leave your life
All i can say is be thankful for the time they were with you,
They came into your life for a reason.
And the ones that really matter stick around

7:

Treat others as you wish to be treated but..
 don't be surprised if they don't do the same for you

8:

Start taking care of your skin asap ( its never too early)

9:

People make mistakes, including you !
No body is perfect !
learn to forgive them and yourself.
 ( and if you really want to aim for perfect, aim to be the best version of yourself)

10:

If you lack confidence - fake it

11:

Find the fun in everything, makes life a lot more interesting

12:

Its okay to not have it all worked out, as scary as it is.

I'm still learning this but i know its truth.

13:
You cant please everyone not matter how much you try.
This goes hand in hand with, not everyone will like you and it sucks !!

14:
Travel !

15:
Dont be afraid to say no. Its your life and you deserve to live it how you choose.
Not how others want you to live

16:
Experiment with your look

17:
Not everything is always black and white... there are shades of gray
Maybe not 50 of them :P

18:
Don't wash your hair every day,
please stop this habit !
A girls best friend = dry shampoo

19:
Sleep on it.
 I've heard this said so many times but i have learnt its true.
Things always seem a little clearer after a good sleep

20:
Take the time every now and then to pamper yourself.
Your body will thank you for it

and last but not least
21:
A wise women once told me
'Don't sweat the small stuff, and everything is small stuff'
I try to remember this every time im worried.
Nothing ever turns out how you imagine it so
chill out :)

This took me so long to write as there's so much i have learnt in 21 years ( like walking for example :P )
I didn't know what to put and what not to put, so who know's we may see an extended edition of this.

Much love
X

Make the change in you're life

Get ready for some inspirational words my little bloglets

You are worth something, scratch that, you are worth a lot.

More then you probably think.

You do not deserve to be treated like dirt !

This is a lesson that i have had to learn this week.

Ive had to learn that at the end of the day Happiness is far more important then money.

This is something i should have already known,

alas, at least i know now.

When your miserable.

When your being treat like a substandard version of a human being.

When you dread the day.

Its time for a change.

IT IS TIME.

I feel like maybe i was treated like this, to be honest, allowed my self to be treated like rubbish, so that i could help others.

So that i could tell them how i would never allow myself to be this unhappy again

and that maybe someone would read this, who feels just as awful as i have felt for the past year and think ' you know what, i want to be happy too ! and i am worth more then this crap that i put up with !!'

Go and chase you're dreams, i can't belive its taken me this long to realise it but i dont want to look back on my life and think, well wasnt that boring. Boring and miserable.
Now im not saying that if your not chasing you dreams you'r not happy but i just feel so empowered to do so at the moment that i want to encourage you all to do the same.
Even though its only been a couple of days since ive made this desison to chase my dreams and just do what makes me happy i have already noticed a vast improvement on my mood, my relationships with others, and strangly my bank balance and waist arnt taking as much of a hit because im just not feeling the need to crush my emotions away with food or to spend till it stops hurting.

My dreams may not be handed to me on a plate and i may have a long joyney till i get there doing all sort of different jobs and meeting so many different people
But i know this is the right path.
I can feel it. 
When you know you know right ?

Ive only made this one desision
to move on
to value myself


I supose i have to thank the people in question.
They gave me the power to move on.
The push i finally needed.

I hope this is yours 
xxxx